Saturday, June 7, 2008

Tragic

Dear Readers,

Please be informed that she rests in peace at SS-J-3F10, Nirvana Memorial Park. Her resting place is inside the big dragon. You are all welcome to visit her there. Thanks a trillion for all her friends who have travelled far to visit her and also to those who will visit her in the future.

As a request from me, if you are her friend, please add her in friendster. Her e-mail address is fionmuileng@yahoo.com

If you guys have any writing and photo contribution to this blog, please do so by e-mail them to me at romernchong@gmail.com

Sorry guys, I am quite busy nowadays as I still need to do something for my beloved sister. My family and I still need to do all the necessary Buddhist rituals, chanting and prayers for her.

Although it should not be an excuse, I will try to blog as frequently as possible to remember her. Besides that, I will start to work on Monday (9th June 2008). As such, I will attend all you guys' queries one by one, and I may take some time to post your writings and photos (if there are) you guys forwarded to me. I thank you guys in advance.

I cannot afford to ask you guys to do so much of stuffs for her (like visiting her). Really thanks a million for those who have helped us (family) to go through this. Thanks also for realizing Mui Leng's dreams (to be her friends). Remember guys, LOVE conquers all.

Many of her firends sms-ed me to ask me about how she passed away?

I want to assure you all that she passed away peacefully.

I did not expect so many of her friends to turn up to pay her a last respect at the Kwang Tung Cemetry Centre. My family and I were really overwhelmed that night. I only sms-ed all her friends in her handphone records, 60 of them, I have only expected few of them to turn up. Sorry if I say this and offend alot of you guys.

That night 1st of June 2008, I saw many of you guys turned up, paid her last respects, some even teary (cried), and comfort us (family). We were really overwhelmed. Sorry if that day I might have said something wrong, or did not entertain you.

The story:

1st of June 2008, was the date when my beloved sister passed away.

She went to Langkawi with her friends (Yew Choong & friends) on 20th to 23rd May 2008.

The day before 1st of June 2008, 31st May 2008, we (my sister and I, her second brother) did go out to Times Square to watch Narnia: Prince Caspian. On last the Friday (30th May 2008), she also went out with her friends (June and Pei Ling). That Friday itself, I was working, I only saw her for about one to two hours after work when I came back home.

I have heard of her pain in the last two weeks of May. Sometimes, she would tell me about her pain (back pain in the right hand side of her body, where the bottom of the right lung located). Last six years, she had been admitted into HUKM before. After she recovered and released from the hospital, the doctor had said that she would recover and would not have the Pneumonia (Lung infection) attack again! The pain at her back after the 2002 incident was normal. We thought the pain was normal. (More details in the later posts).

I will give an account on what happened on 30th and 31st of May 2008 in other posts too.

Morning 1st of June 2008:

Upon hearing about her pain the night before, in the morning, I had woke up but was still half-awake on my bed. My dad opened my bedroom door, and said (in Cantonese), "Please accompany your mother to bring your sister for check-up in HUKM".

I replied, "Ok". We got ready and headed for HUKM. The traffic that day was light. We got there in 20 minutes.

We asked around where was the Pusat Perubatan of HUKM. We walked to the entrance of a building on the left wing. Mui Leng was walking weakly, holding onto the taxi-stand railing, with her right hand on her painful spot, then I asked her whether she was OK, she said she can still walk on. She asked me to bear her bag and I obliged. We then walked slowly to the entrance. I asked the receptionist where should we go. The receptionist then told me we need areference letter from a doctor of an otide clinic to visit HUKM for treatment. I abrupty retrieved and showed him my sis' past HUKM record card, then he said we can proceed directly to the Pusat Perubatan at the further back.

We then walked to a park in HUKM coompund to wait for our mom. While we waited for my mom to park her car at the parking lot, I asked my sis to sit on the bench with me, she obeyed obidiently. She was so sweet. We were sitting on the bench quietly and I really enjoyed her company, just sitting on the banch quietly.

When our mom came, we walked to the Pusat Perubatan. At the registration counter, we registered ourselves and quickly proceeded to the check-up room. Her urine was examined.

We then settled on our seats in front of the pharmacy counter to wait for her turn to see the doctor. When reached our turn, we met her doctor and the doctor did some testing (like temperature) on her. We explained laboriously about her pain at the back (like it was similar to her past pain). Then, she was requested for X-ray for more detail.

We explained her pain as serious as possible. The doctor kept looking at her check-up report and the urine test result. The doctor simply explained that she just had some bacteria infection at her urinals and may be at her kidney.

After her X-ray, the doctor viewed at her X-ray result on the computer screen. The X-ray picture was quite small in the screen. I wondered why he could not enlarge the view. The siren blasted in the background.

The doctor, he was aparently called for some emergency, I believe both emergency and the frontline check-up share the same doctors. Talk about inadequacy of doctors in the hospital.

We waited for him about 30 minutes as he said he would be return to us later.

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After a while, he returned and kept staring at the screen with my sis' X-ray result again. I saw some white spot on the bottom of her right side lung (in the screen, t showed up on the left). The doctor pondered quite long. He had heard all our explanation from my sis, my mom and I. He later said that the white spot (which was quite small) was her scar left from last pneumonia attack. Nothing to worry about. I asked him, "Are you sure?, Positive?". He nodded and said yes. He even told us later that the pain at her back might be caused by the urinal infection. The infection might somehow affect her past pain from her right lung to pain. Ok, I believed him since he was the emergency doctor, he must be a very good doctor. I was not blaming him on this, but I really think he tried his best to diagnose/sort my sis problem.

He had also asked whether she had fever or difficulty in breathing. Unfortunately, she had none of these. Few days before, she did not have too. But she had some fever sometimes. She also had headache the day before (which she told me she suspected was tumor the day before during our outing). We told all these to our doctor.

All the doctor said was because of the urinal infection. He did say the infection might be caused when she urine (which was not the rel case).

I did try to convince him that it might be caused by the Pneumonia. He then only willed and said we might come for other check-up (ultrasound & tiny camera insertion through the food tract).

We silently obliged. My sister at the time was really relieved. We thought it might be only some infection and since the doctor reassured us nothing serious, we heaved a huge relief. After received doctor's prescription, we collected the doctor prescribed medication and left the HUKM with peace in mind.

To be continued.... (Next account: she passed away peacefully later in the evening at Hospital Ampang).

It's 1:07am, I will blog some other time. Thanks for listening.

Regards,
Her brother.

2 comments:

KkChan™ said...

dear muileng,
as i can c ur brother loves u so much, i do know tat ur loves to him r no less than those he given u... i can further confirmed & knew it since da 2nd day at langkawi when u were holding a can of beer and told me tat "it is for my bro"... it was juz sweet...

yea, i totally agreed wif ur brother about all of ur personalities... i believe tat i could learn more about ur goods if v get along more... anyway, i can still know more bout u in da future here...
im sry but hapi to b able to visit u for both da 1st time at nirwana & for ur bday... if u r still arnd, i blieve tat ychoong will sure call us out for at least a simple yumcha for ur bday celebration!...

no worry fren, i'll never 4get ur little smiles, sweet voices & all da great memories tat v had 2gether... u r stil & always b in my heart de ;)

pray & wish u all da best wherever u r...

Jones said...

The 30th Memoriam

The pain misery felt like own,
Memories flip pulsating like beats in the heart,
Inappetence, by whom not from the crown,
Palpable by our very own heart,

The only solace found in weeding the emotion,
Very much like stamping out the wick, our pretence,
No more warmness, but darkness motion,
Light again the fire of existence

I remember her, I remember not,
Through monographs of lives,
Monographs of thoughts,
At times better than jives.

I love you always, but time doesn’t consent,
Chance unforgiving, time irredeemable,
Soul mates meet and end,
Shall we meet again, it will be a fable.